Conflict Of Interest

Hello all! I know it's been a while since I last posted anything, but I hope to change that. This one was a very difficult set for me to write. This is actually about my brother. I found out recently that he almost committed suicide a few months back. I have my own personal thought on it, but I felt it necessary to try and tell his story as best as I could. Please be gentle. Like I said, this one was a difficult one for me to write. Close to the end, don't be mistaken. The way it's written is exactly how it is supposed to be when it's recorded.

Reject me for my sins,
Follow up my pain,
Say there’s nothing more to give
And now my blood won’t stain.

Trying to find out the goddamn reason.
Cut out my heart just to stop my breathing.

No, no more breathing.
I’m not bleeding.
Take away these lies and
Make me see what’s left inside.

God, my son’s left alone,
I broke my life, my home.
Still, the smile he has can
Pull me from the death I beg.

Tired of finding a goddamn reason.
Sever the ties just to stop my breathing.

No, I’m still breathing.
Why not bleeding?
Tell me why I’m cursed to
Stay here left alive.

Won-der why I feel like
I can take this no more.
Not much left in my life,
But e-nough to reform.

Sa-cri-fice what’s left of
Doubt and de-gra-dation,
Fall to pie-ces just to
Come to re-va-lation.

My God, save me!
Bring me to life!
Save my son from
His father’s weakness!

No need to ask to be "gentle", this should say it all by itself. It starts out really great and fits together like the neatest puzzle. And my deepest sympathies for the situation, of course. I hope it gets better and not worse.