So I write down a lot of things in my phone and recently just put them together.. If you read through all of them that is awesome! Let me know what you think!
1. What am I going to do in this life?
What kind of things will I do right?
Accomplishments left unachieved
The bigger picture brings me to my knees
So scared of who I am and where I'm going
Maybe my life is better left unknowing
I'll take each step one after the next
And keep screaming from the heart in my chest
Ive got so much passion
I just hope I'll get a reaction
Value from the things I achieve
No mercy when I fail to succeed
Puzzle pieces fall together
This life won't last forever
2. There is no escaping these feelings
The rope won't leave my neck
I just want to leave this town
Ditch my past and cash all my checks
Some things will never change
Life's secrets remain the same
What was I meant to be? *
My future seems so bleak
If your out there.. Give me hope
I can't stand the feeling of this rope
Give me reason, give me light
So far it's been a hopeless fight
This weather doesnt seem to change
Dark clouds and rainy days
The leaves don't change colors
They just fall and crumble
I'm praying for a different storm
My shelter is becoming so worn
What will it take? What will it take?
My life needs to see better days
If your out there.. Give me hope
I can't stand the feeling of this rope
Give me reason, give me light
So far it's been a hopeless fight
Alone, alone, alone is all ill ever be
And no one, no one, will take that away
I've built my walls up high
Because I know the weak cant climb
Nor will they ever survive
The rope will take their life
3. I took two steps forward
and five steps back.
This road is very rough
I stepped on every crack
But did I quit?? no!
Ive got a mind of power and a heart of steel
Can't even begin to explain the pain that I feel
I was left with my heart charred and scared
But I managed to rise to my feet!!
And started swingin ...
to this heavy beat Ohhhh!!
You wanna talk about feeling alone
Being hurt and left in the cold
Let me tell you about my life
It's a theme of never ending strife *
But I kept walking one foot after the next
Concurring all those broken cracks *
I never quite
My head held high
Because I've been blessed with a heart and a mind
Something many others cant seem to find
They search and search but all they know is hate
Well lets be a positive influence and make a change
You were born with a heart you were born with a mind
So use it and stop wasting this worlds time
4. So many thought these lives
Could never coincide
Tear down the walls
That separate our faults
We've chosen different paths
That won't break what we have
Our views so far apart
Got your back from the start
It's impossible to break this bond
Friends forever, we'll stand strong
One friend has been edge from the start
Hes still here after my life fell apart
Drinks and drugs gave me false hope
My life felt like it was at the end of a rope
No tears just fear left in my eyes
I'm like a cat with nine lives
Should have died twice
Yes once from suicide
This is my life that i live with regret
Had some memories I'll never forget
Say another word and youll feel my might
Yes another drink and ill call it a night
It's impossible to break this bond
Friends forever, we'll stand strong
This is my sober life
Break free from the strife
No poison to have a good time
Just some friends by my side
You don't have to hate
If you can't relate
It doesn't matter what you believe
Beer in your hand or heart on a sleeve
I've seen depressions days
Life's got me confessin my rage
No drugs no drinks for me
This world has enough misery
5. "Worry about your own fortunes gentlemen. The deepest circle of hell is reserved for betrayers and mutineers"
You want to talk about respect and loyalty?
Those words mean nothing to a man like you
Living for moments of satisfaction
Loosing your friends more and more with each action
Every step you take
Betraying your true friends every day
That's not a path I'll ever take
I'll never stoop that low
Take a friends trust away
Loose everything you have worked to create
So what do you say?
Who are you now?
Moments of satisfaction will not get you out
Your true friends are not here for you now
6. Just in a blink of an eye.
One phone called changed my life.
A good friend had just committed suicide.
I sat and stared.
I couldn't believe it, it was so unfair. God had just taken my friend.
I began to remember all the good times we had.
All the laughs and smiles.
All the times were our friendship was put on trial.
I still can't believe your gone.
I'm gonna grieve for so long
You left us with no reason.
Left our minds wondering what to believe in
I wish I could have been by your side
Maybe if I was a better friend you wouldn't have died
I'm trying not to put this pain on me
Sometimes this life is fully of agony
Maybe that's what you felt.
Maybe you couldn't handle the cards you were dealt.
Either way it was part of gods plan.
I'm gonna miss you bud, until the end
Can't wait to see you in a better place.
You'll be waiting there for me at those purely gates.
Until then I know you'll be by my side. Please comfort those who are considering taking their lives.
Show them there's hope
Show them the pain they leave behind
The family and friends who will never forget their taken lives.
I miss you nick. See you again one day bud.
7. We have this connection
One I can't seem to explain
But you hide your emotions
Mine I can't quite contain
You walk gracefully through a conversation as I stutter every word
My thoughts aren't quite there and I don't want to be misunderstood
We share our faith
We can talk about the worlds hate
Or how he saved me, he saved you
He brought us together, maybe that's the missing clue
But we can't seem to make the connection
Between friends and meaningful affection
Maybe time is what this needs
My head would sure like to breath
The words are still so jaded
I can't get them situated
In ways that answer my questions
Time is my only discretion
I still can't help but think
What is this undefined connection