Libitina – Smile Of The Martyr lyrics

And so I'll keep the smile of the martyr
Held back for you
To shut you out of mind
Hiding behind this grinning facade
The skeleton smile of my former joy
You won't find out how much I feel the hurt
That tightens around me and pulls me down
The feelings that serve to remind me that
I cannot afford to trust you again

The smile of the martyr will shut you out
There can be no share of the pain for you
The smile of the martyr will shut you out
You cut the umbilical
Now suffer the child

I'll wear a crown of thorns upon my head
Raise the unholy cross I have to bear
My hands free of scars
I'll hang by the nails
That you've nailed into my vibrant heart
Sold for whatever profit you may seek
A sacrifice I did not want to make
Unlike Him I cannot walk away
From this, my Garden of Gethsemane

The smile of the martyr will shut you out
There can be no share of the pain for you
The smile of the martyr will shut you out
You cut the umbilical
Now suffer the child

I'll suffer the lash of the mental whip
And the cruel rack of stretching hours alone
All done in silence
You won't hear me scream
I can't let you see the damage done to me
I'll close my gouged eyes to your temptation
Hide within myself
Thoughts of nights past
This martyr's smile tells more than you can know
Of the pain and pleasure you've put me through